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30 December 2023

The Stalker

It all began when registered with FindAPartner.com. I had been single my whole life, while watching all my friends being happily paired up: I felt a mix of envy and loneliness. My attempts to form relationships had always failed, either because of my social awkwardness or because the woman I liked was already spoken for. At least on a dating app you know the other person will be single . . .

Barely two weeks have passed when I receive an alert informing me that she has liked my profile. Well, I think, it's only fair if I like hers too. The very next day, she messages me: "Hey xxxxx". I feel a thrill of anticipation: I've only just started on this app and someone already likes me - wow! This dating app lark is so easy! I message her back, asking how how she was doing.

"Can I have your phone number plz? xxx", she then sends to me.

Awkward moment.

"I'm happy to keep talking to you, but it's too early to be exchanging numbers", I say. I hope she isn't put off from contacting me.

"Aw come onnnnnnn", she tells me.

I try to stand firm.

"It's not normal to ask for phone numbers when you've only just made contact."

"Come on, where's the harm?", she asks.

I hesitate, but then give in. I give her my number, and she sends flirtatious texts to me, and I send them back. We exchange messages for a few days: at first I am pleased and flattered by her attentions, but as the days go by I realise that she isn't the one for me. The question is, how to tell her that.

"Thanks for your interest, but I don't really think we're suited."

I hope she will understand.

"Plz don't go, I really like talking to you xxx", she replies.

"I'm sorry, but I just feel we don't fit."

"But we do we do! Yr so amazing!"

"I'm sorry, but I feel I have to end our conversation. Hope you find someone."

I then switch off my phone. Surely if she doesn't get a reply she'll give up.

The next day, I have to put my phone back on to clock into work. There I see a string of messages, so many of them I soon lose count, from her, begging me to think again, to think how she is feeling, to be kind to her, to love her like she loves me, etc. I decide to try one more time.

"Please don't keep texting me it's borderline harassment. I don't want a relationship with you."

Surely if I am firm with her she will finally get the message.

But no. As the days go by she keeps texting me, as well as messaging me on FindAPartner. Her messages become ever more extreme: "But I love you so desperately", "Yr the man of my dreams", "I cd never love another man".


It's time to go to work again. I lock my front door, then turn around to face the street. There, just outside my gate, is her. I jump when I see her, then try to gather myself. I wonder how she found out where I live. As I am closing my gate she comes up to me.

"These are for you my love. A sign of how much I love you."

She offers me a box of chocolates. I take it - what else could I do?

"Thank you", I say, smiling awkwardly.

She throws her arms around me and hugs me as tightly as she can. I wriggle free and walk briskly away, still carrying the box of chocolates.

The next morning, the same thing happens, only this time she gives me a bunch of flowers.

"Thank you", I sigh, "but please stop hanging outside my house, I don't want these gifts."

She leaps for joy, having apparently only heard the "thank you".

That evening, I'm watching the latest episode of Vigil when the doorbell rings. I hang my head: I think I know who it is. I open the door, and there she is.

I try to close the door, but she throws her arms around me and pulls my head down toward hers: I notice she has a wild look in her eyes. Our lips are barely an inch apart when I yank myself out of her unwanted embrace.

"Please stop it! Now!" I have finally lost all patience with her. "I don't like all this . . . all this . . . stalking."

She doesn't reply: she stares at me, seemingly bewildered.

"Go now!", I shout at her. "I mean it!"

She runs off.


One day later. I've left work and I drop in at the police station. I tell the police about her, but they just laugh at me and mock me, joking about love-struck women and suggesting I should have been more of a gentleman. I leave, disappointed but not entirely surprised, and walk home. It's starting to get dark: it's that time of year. Suddenly, I hear something. I stop and listen. Footsteps. With a horrible feeling in my stomach, I turn around. She is following me.

09 November 2023

Home Chapter 8: Surprises

Finally, after months of research, Abdul had managed to locate his family. He was excited as he opened up Andy's laptop: this Saturday afternoon, Andy had given him permission to use it for a Zoom call. As his mother, sister and brother all appeared on screen, Abdul felt a wave of emotion flow over him: Khadija's face may have become more wrinkled, Nadifa may now be taller and Mohammed may be more stout, but it was undoubtedly them. It felt like they had never been apart.

"Ali, my little boy!", cried Khadija, with tears rolling down her cheeks. "I thought I had lost you forever!"

"Are you all right, Ali?", inquired Nadifa.

"I'm . . ." Abdul began. He was going to say he was fine, but he could not lie to his family, and so quickly burst into an account of everything that had happened since the fateful day when Amina had persuaded him to board the plane. When he had finished his story, Nadifa had her hands over her mouth, and Mohammed was shaking his head: however, Abdul's eyes were on Khadija, who was staring blankly at him. This surprised him: he had expected her to be more emotional. He decided to probe further.

"Did you know Amina well?", he asked her.

"I thought I did", said Khadija in a faltering voice.

"So how did you meet her?", Abdul asked.

"One day, after I finished work, she came up to me in the street and said hello."

"Did you never ask her why she was interested in you?", inquired Nadifa.

"No, I didn't", Khadija admitted.

"Why should she?", asked Mohammed.

"Well, isn't that more than a bit suspicious?", Nadifa pointed out.

"So", said Abdul, trying to reassert some control of the situation, "what did you say to her?"

"I asked her what she wanted, and she said she knew we were in a bad situation, and she could help us", said Khadija.

"And you didn't ask how she knew about us?" Nadifa's eyes were as wide as the computer screen.

"Honestly, I didn't think . . ." pleaded Khadija.

"Leave her alone, Nadifa", admonished Mohammed. Nadifa glared at him.

"So how did she say she could help?", asked Abdul, though he was starting to get a horrible sense of what the answer would be.

Khadija bowed her head. "Please forgive me", she sobbed, "but we were very poor, and she offered me enough money to feed three people for a month . . ."

Abdul threw back his head in shock. He had gone through so much, but this was the lowest blow of all.

"So that explains everything!", shouted Nadifa. "Why you allowed her to come to the house so often! Why you left her with Ali on that day when we went out to see our grandparents! I knew it!"

"How?" This was only word Abdul was able to get out.

"Because", said Nadifa in a pained voice, "after you disappeared, I began to investigate Amina, and I found out she is part of a global child trafficking ring. She has sent hundreds of children from here to England, to France, to other places. And when I told her" - she threw a dirty glance at their mother - "what I had found, she would stare at the floor and start shuffling her feet."

"Be fair, Nadifa", said Mohammed angrily, "but what choice did she have? She did what she had to do to feed us."

"But she sold Ali into slavery into slavery", insisted Nadifa: her cheeks were flushed now. "Even Iblis himself would never do that."

"Are you calling . . ." began Mohammed, but before he got any further, Abdul left the call and swiftly shut down the computer. He felt stuck in the middle of an endless void. He began to cry, but hastily stopped himself. He hurried downstairs, where Susan greeted him with the words:

"So you've finally stopped babbling in that horrible foreign language?"


It was just two days later when Andy dropped Abdul off outside the Special Immigration Appeals Commission.

"Good luck", said Andy, as Abdul stepped out of the car.

Abdul mumbled his reply: he was still stunned by the revelations about his mother. He tentatively entered the building with a feeling full of foreboding. He looked around, and saw Paulette looking intently at her papers. He approached her: she looked up and smiled at him, but her expression soon became concerned.

"Are you OK?", she asked.

"Yes", said Abdul quickly.

Paulette looked at him shrewdly. She opened her mouth as if to speak, but then decided against it.

"Well", she said briskly, "the hearing will begin in five minutes."

"OK", said Abdul.

"Don't worry", said Paulette, who seemed to have noticed his expression. "You'll be fine, this isn't the Home Office."

"OK", said Abdul again. He hoped he could trust what she had said.

"So first", said Paulette, "I will have a meeting with the Home Office lawyer, to see the Home Office will accept our arguments."

"Will they really?", asked Abdul, unable to conceal his incredulity.

"Well obviously that's not very likely", Paulette continued, a brief smile crossing her lips. "And if we can't agree, I'll hand this" - she showed Abdul one of the papers she was carrying - "to the judge."

"So that's my case, is it?", Abdul asked.

"It's what's called the skeleton argument, that briefly sets out what the Home Office got wrong. Then the hearing will begin."

Paulette then looked up.

"Look", she said, pointing to a small, bald, smartly-dressed man strolling around the hallway, "there's the Home Office lawyer."

She gathered her papers.

"Stay here while I speak to him".

Abdul watched Paulette walk the short distance over to the stranger. He strained to hear what they were saying, but was unable to. After a couple of minutes, Paulette came back to him, a look of grim determination on her face.

"What happened?", asked Abdul, though he could guess her answer.

"We couldn't reach agreement", she replied. "I told him you had as good a case as any, but he said the Home Office is determined to fight it."

Abdul sighed.

"But it'll be all the worse for them", said Paulette. "Come on, it's time for us to go inside."

Abdul wished he could share her optimism. He followed Paulette as she entered a grand room, adorned with portraits of what he assumed were famous judges, and held up with with a set of ornate pillars. He and Paulette sat down behind a table, and the Home Office lawyer took his seat a few feet away.

"All rise!"

Somewhat awkwardly, Abdul got to his feet. He saw two men and a woman emerge through a door at the back of the room, and sit down on an elevated platform.

"Ms. Coleman", boomed the man sitting in the middle.

Paulette strode out from behind the table and handed over the paper she had shown Abdul earlier. She then returned to the table and began speaking, in a calm and authoritative voice:

"Thank you, Your Honours. My client will now tell you how he came to this country, and why he is claiming asylum. Once you have heard him, and read our argument, you will see that this is a clear cut a case as you will ever see, and that justice and compassion mandate you to overturn the Home Office's refusal of his claim."

She pointed Abdul to the witness box. Feeling ever more nervous, Abdul quickly made his way over: the quicker I get there, the quicker it'll be over, he thought. In answer to Paulette's questions, he told the judges everything: about his life in Somalia, how he had been tricked by Amina into coming to London, how he had been enslaved in Amina's house, how Andy had rescued him, how he had lived in the UK with no trouble ever since, and how everything had come crashing down since the fateful day he had revealed his true identity. He thought he had acquitted himself well, but in the back of his mind he feared how he would fare under cross-examination. Sure enough, when the Home Office lawyer stood up, Abdul struggled under the hostile questions: why had he not just run away from Amina's house? Why had he kept the name Amina had given him? Surely that proved he was a fraud? If his family was in Somalia, why could he not simply go back there? It was like having to face Joan again. He was relived when the questioning ended, but pessimistic about his chances.

Paulette then got to her feet again.

"Your Honours", she said, "what you have seen today is a young man who has been through the most traumatising ordeal. He has appeared before you today and has honestly and straightforwardly told you of his experiences. Despite everything, you have seen him give a clear and consistent account of all he has undergone. I submit that he has demonstrated his truthfulness to you, and the appeal must be allowed."

Then it was the turn of the Home Office lawyer.

"Your Honours, you will have noticed the inconsistencies and the contradictions in the appellant's evidence. He was unable to give a convincing explanation for why he would have kept the name he says was given him by his enslaver, or why he did not simply run away from house where he says he was so ill-treated. I submit that he is not a truthful witness and that the appeal must fail."

The hearing was over. All filed out of the courtroom, Abdul with his head bowed.

"Are you all right?", Paulette asked him.

"I think I did badly", said Abdul.

"You didn't, I assure you", said Paulette.

"But when he was asking me those questions, it was so . . . so hard. I didn't come across well."

"I know it wasn't easy for you", said Paulette, "but the judges know what you have experienced, and will take that into consideration."

"Are you sure?", asked Abdul.

"I am", said Paulette. "Remember, Abdul, I've fought hundreds of cases like yours before, these judges have sat on hundreds of cases like this."

"Well, if you say so", sighed Abdul.

They had now left the court building: Abdul could see Andy sitting in the car waiting for him.

"Goodbye, Abdul", said Paulette, offering her hand.

"When will I hear back?", asked Abdul.

"That could take weeks, maybe months", said Paulette solemnly: she seemed to sense this wasn't what Abdul wanted to hear. "Trust me, though, it will be good news."

Abdul shook Paulette's still outstretched hand, thanked her, and clambered back into the car.

"How was it?", asked Andy.

"Not very good", said Abdul, and he told Andy everything that had happened.

"Obviously not a pleasant experience", said Andy when he had finished, "but I'm sure it'll all be fine."

He started up the engine and drove back home. The journey was pleasant enough: the two chatted away, with Abdul doing his best to avoid talking about the hearing. Back home, Andy encouraged Abdul to tell Susan about what had happened. As he had anticipated, she wasn't sympathetic.

"So they've found you out, have they?", she asked. "I knew they would in the end."


Two weeks had gone by and still no news. Abdul was trying to be happy as possible, but it wasn't easy. Noticing how down he was feeling, Andy had invited him to the school parents' evening, telling him there was someone there who would be very interested to see him. Abdul was intrigued, but also frustrated that Andy refused to reveal who it might be. When the evening came, Abdul dressed as smartly as he could and, trying to ignore Susan's snide remarks, he and Andy set off in the car, arriving about half an hour before the parents were set to turn up. Andy led Abdul through the school door into the hallway, they pointed to someone.

"There he is."

Abdul stared at the man: it was Fred! He blinked, hoping to make sure his eyes had not deceived him: they hadn't.

"Hello Abdul, nice to see you", said Fred. He was smiling from ear to ear: he could hardly have been any more different from the last time Abdul had seen him.

"What are you doing here?", exclaimed Abdul.

"I've just started an admin role here", explained Fred. "I signed up with the agency Your Jobs, and almost immediately they put me forward for this job, I was interviewed and I got it, and I'm very happy here."

"So how did you find out about me?", asked Abdul.

"Because", said Andy, "when Fred started here, on the morning break on his first day, he was asked where he had worked before, and he said that he used to work for the Home Office, but was sacked after he argued with his boss over a young man who had been trafficked from Somalia. I knew that must be you, so I told him how it was me that rescued you, so he asked to meet you."

"So", beamed Fred, "it's a small world, isn't it?"

Abdul was open mouthed.

"Anyway", said Andy, "I must be off to attend to my duties, so I'll leave you two to it."

He headed off in the direction of his classroom, the one where Abdul had once begun all of his school days. Abdul watched Andy leave, then as he was about to turn back to Fred, he heard a voice behind him.

"Never thought I see you here!"

Abdul turned. Sam was standing there, smiling at him, wearing a suit and a dress. Next to them stood Heather, also smiling, in a shiny yellow dress that Abdul found himself rather admiring. In between the couple was a boy of about 12 or 13: Abdul had heard Sam mentioning having a son before, but until now had never met the child. Abdul smiled somewhat awkwardly.

"Have you had your hearing yet?", asked Heather.

"Yes", said Abdul abruptly, and he quickly told Sam and Heather about it.

"How horrible for you!", exclaimed Heather.

"I think you'll be OK", said Sam. "That lawyer is probably right."

"Do you know Abdul?", Fred asked.

"Yes", said Sam. "It was we who recommended his lawyer to him. So how do you know him?"

"I was the Home Office caseworker who interviewed him."

"So, it was you . . ." began Heather, her voice rising.

"No, it's OK, it wasn't his fault", interjected Abdul. "Fred was kind to me, but I had to have a second interview and they got a horrible woman who wouldn't believe me, that's how I ended up in that detention place."

"So you're not with the Home Office any more?", inquired Sam.

"No", said Fred, "they got my agency to tell me I was sacked. I had a really horrible boss, it must have been her who did Abdul's substantive interview. I had some dark times afterwards" - here he threw Abdul a "don't tell them any more" look - "but in the end I got this job via a different agency."

Sam and Heather both smiled on hearing this: their son jumped up and down. Abdul however only managed a weak smile.

"Are you OK? Still worrying about your hearing?", asked Sam.

"Yes", said Abdul.

"Well how about this?", said Sam. "How would you like to go for a meal with us three" - they indicated Heather and the child  - "tomorrow night?"

"I'd like it very much", said Abdul. "What time and where?"

"Shall we say around eight o'clock at the Hope and Glory restaurant?"

"OK", said Abdul.

"Settled then", smiled Sam. "But right now it's time for us to learn about this little boy."

"See you tomorrow night, Abdul", said Heather. She took the child by the hand, saying, "Come on Justin, let's see what your teachers have to say", and the three of them entered the main body of the building. Abdul spent the rest of the parents' evening chatting with Fred until Andy came back.


It was just after eight the following evening when Abdul claimed out of Andy's car just outside the Hope and Glory. Sam, Heather and Justin were all outside waiting for him. Sam was wearing their hair long and curled, and had on a shirt and trousers. Heather's hair was in a bun, and she was wearing a stunning full-length pale green dress and matching high heels. Justin was wearing a Superman shirt. They all went inside and were enjoying a happy evening. Abdul was able to forget about his troubles, until suddenly his phone rang. He felt a tinge of alarm: it was Paulette's number. Bracing himself, he answered the call.

"Hello?"

"Is that Abdul?"

"Yes."

"I've just been informed: your appeal was successful, the deportation order has been overturned. The judges were absolutely stinging in their criticism of the Home Office's handling of your case, so the Home Office has decided not to appeal and has given you leave to remain. Congratulations, Abdul."

Abdul had tears of incredulity running down his face.

"Really?", he said.

"Yes", said Paulette.

"Well, thank you so much for what you did for me", said Abdul.

"Not at all", said Paulette. "It's been a pleasure knowing you. I suggest you go out and celebrate, you've earned it."

"I'm already out with friends."

"All the better then", said Paulette, a light-heartedness in her voice to Abdul had never heard before. "Enjoy your evening, and congratulations once again."

The phone went dead.

"Was it about your appeal?", asked Heather.

"I won", said Abdul.

"Wow", said Sam, "well done, Abdul, what wonderful news."

"You told the Home Office where to go", said Heather.

"Well, it's thanks to you two", Abdul pointed out.

"We may have helped, but it was you who did it, Abdul", said Sam. "Congratulations".

Sam held out their hand and shook Abdul's. Heather leaned over the table and have Abdul a warm embrace. Justin gave him a high five. Abdul was finding it hard to take it all in. It had been very hard but, yes, he had won. Now he could look forward to getting a new job and a new home.


In 2022, the Home Office transferred responsibility for modern slavery away from the Minister for Safeguarding and turned it into an illegal immigration issue.

Suella Braverman has claimed that modern slavery victims are "gaming the system" - there is no evidence for this claim and the Home Office has been rebuked by the Office of National Statistics for making it.

The government has made it harder for people to prove that they are victims of trafficking.

There has been no Anti-Slavery Commissioner since April 2022, despite it being a legal requirement under the Modern Slavery Act 2015.

The Home Office often treats victims of modern slavery as immigration offenders rather than victims of a crime, and has sent victims back to the address where they were enslaved.

In recent years, victims have been given trauma deadlines, disqualification from support due to crimes they were forced to commit, and an increased burden of proof.

The majority of modern slavery claims are initially rejected, but 78 per cent of those who challenge the decision win on appeal.

Victims are routinely detained or deported, and have no pathways to citizenship.

90 per cent of those referred from immigration detention to the National Referral Mechanism are confirmed to be victims.

Only two per cent of child trafficking victims are granted discretionary leave to remain - some receive temporary visas lasting until adulthood, but 35 per cent of adults who were trafficked as children were refused asylum in 2020.

Under the Nationality and Borders Act 2022, people can be disqualified from protection if they claimed to be a victim in "bad faith" or are a "threat to public order", or for "late provision of information".

Under the Illegal Migration Act 2023, victims who arrive in UK by an irregular route are banned from receiving support, are detained on arrival with no right to consideration or appeal, and removed to a "safe" third country. The UN High Commissioner for Refugees has warned that the Act "extinguishes access to asylum in the UK".

03 October 2023

Home Chapter 7: Rescue

Six months had passed: still no date had been set for Abdul's appeal. Andy had been kind to him, but he had also had to put up with Susan's scepticism, if not outright hostility. Abdul also felt slightly resentful at being dependent on the charity of another. With no job, the days seemed to inch past. When Andy and Susan were at work, Abdul would spend his time either on the library computer, trying to track down his family, or walking by the side of the Thames, which is what he was doing now. He tightened his coat as a bitter gust of wind grabbed him. He glanced at the river: every so often the waters would rise almost to ground level, before falling back just as suddenly. Then he saw something else: a man in the water. He was not attempting to swim, nor struggling for help: instead, he was slowly and deliberately walking (or so it seemed) into the depths.

"Hey! Come back!", Abdul shouted instinctively.

He wondered if the stranger had heard him: certainly there was no response, and the other continued on his perilous journey.

"It's dangerous out there!", Abdul called out.

Still the stranger kept on: how stupid he must be, thought Abdul, unless . . .

Abdul lowered himself into the choppy waters and swam towards the man. This was far from easy: Abdul was not the strongest, and wind was still blowing hard, but in the end, through sheer determination, he reached the stranger, whose head was now the only part of the his body above the surface. Abdul grabbed the man's arm and began to pull him back towards the footpath. He was not sure quite how he managed it, but eventually he was able to grasp terra firma, and he hauled himself and the other up onto the path: he was soaked and shivering. Abdul laid the stranger on the ground and let out a gasp that had nothing to do with his aquatic exertions: the man was Fred!

Fred was panting very heavily, and his eyes were closed. Abdul took his phone out of his coat pocket and called the air ambulance: on finishing the call, he looked down and saw that Fred's eyes had opened: perhaps the sound of the phone had woken him up.

"Were you trying to kill yourself?", he asked, though he already knew what the answer must be.

"Yes", said Fred, breathing heavily.

"But why?", asked Abdul.

"The last six months", panted Fred. "No job . . . no income . . . when I apply . . . Opportunities tell me they won't . . . won't put me forward."

"And why won't they?", asked Abdul, though he had no idea what Fred was talking about..

"Because", said Fred, who now seemed to have got his breath back, "it seems just about every job they have is with the Home Office, and they keep telling me the Home Office won't employ me again. And all because of a LinkedIn page!". He sounded angry now.

"So the Home Office let you go, did they?", asked Abdul, desperately trying to make sense of everything.

"Yes", said Fred, sitting up now. "I had an argument with my line manager when she thought I was too kind to one of my interviewees, then got a call later that day from Opportunities, my agency, telling me the Home Office didn't want me any more."

"But why?", Abdul asked.

"Apparently because I mentioned them on my LinkedIn page", replied Fred.

"Really?". Abdul stared at Fred.

"Yes", said Fred, whose body was now shaking, and not because of the cold and wet. "While the Home Secretary deliberately leaks classified information, and yet on the news this morning we learn that she's been given her job back by the new Prime Minister. After just six days! And my whole life is ruined because of a LinkedIn page! It's outrageous! No one in the history of the world has ever been treated worse than me!" He was shouting now.

"That's not true, I've had things a lot worse in my life", said Abdul indignantly.

"Have you?" Fred looked at Abdul quizzically.

"Yes", insisted Abdul. Then something dawned on him. "Don't you remember me, I'm the one you interviewed, the one was was trafficked from Somalia."

Fred blinked.

"Now I think about it, I do remember you", he said sheepishly. "It was you I had that argument with my manager about. So what happened to you? Did you get your asylum claim?"

"No", said Abdul, speaking quickly now. "I had the second interview with a horrible woman . . .

"I think I know who you're referring to", said Fred grimly.

 ". . . and a letter from the Home Office, telling me I'd been rejected, so I was taken away and locked up in a detention centre, until I got a lawyer, she got bail for me, and I'm still waiting for my appeal."

Fred sighed. "I suppose you're right, you have had it worse . . . sorry I've forgotten you're name, Abu, is it?

"Abdul". He felt somewhat offended by this.

"I'm sorry", said Fred, his cheeks turning red. "Well", he added somewhat awkwardly, "obviously it's been awful for you, but good luck with your appeal."

Abdul heard a loud grinding noise just above his head. He looked up: the air ambulance had arrived. As both he and Fred were flown to the hospital, Abdul could not help feeling proud of what he had just done. Amina had once called him a "lazy good-for-nothing" after he overslept one morning after being forced to work late at night ironing Hassan's shirts and polishing his shoes for a work meeting, and the Home Office clearly regarded him as a freeloading illegal immigrant, but he knew differently, and couldn't help but smile.

31 August 2023

Home Chapter 6: Freedom

But as soon as Abdul got back to his cell, his optimism drained away. He remembered how hopeful he had been after his screening interview at the Home Office, and look what had happened there. Could he really trust anyone in a position of authority? He also could not forget Paulette's tone: she had sounded rather detached and unemotional. Did she really care enough to fight his case? But, he supposed, he had no option but to trust her.

The following afternoon, as Abdul was in the exercise yard, an officer marched up to him, and said, rather abruptly:

"Harbi, some lawyer is here to see you."

Half hopeful, half wary, Abdul allowed the officer to lead him back inside the building: as he did so, he heard a plane taking off. The officer marched smartly ahead, and Abdul had to struggle to keep up with him. He wondered if she would see him in his cell, or in the visiting room, but, instead, found himself being led well away from the parts of the centre that he had grown wearily accustomed to. They clambered up a set of stairs that Abdul had never used before, and (it seemed) climbed all the way to the top of the detention centre, before the officer finally stopped.

"There you are", he said, gesturing.

Abdul looked past him, and saw that he was pointing through a bright red door to a large, comfortable looking room, filled with armchairs like the one Abdul had at home. A woman was sitting in one of the armchairs: instantly, Abdul knew who this must be. He slipped past the officer and into the room. As he approached her, the woman stood up and offered her hand.

"Abdul Harbi?", she asked.

She was a black woman, tall with crinkly hair and a solemn face, holding a large notebook. Abdul nodded and shook her hand, still feeling wary of her.

"Pleased to meet you, I'm Paulette", she said, in a stiff voice that did nothing to encourage Abdul. "Do sit down."

She gestured to the chair next to hers. Abdul complied.

"Now", said Paulette, "can you please tell me your story."

Still wondering if she would turn out to be like Fred or like Joan, Abdul told her everything: about how he had been trafficked, how Andy had rescued him, how he had been sacked by John, and all about his dealings with the Home Office. Throughout his story, he kept his eyes on Paulette, but, much to his disappointment, her expression remained unchanged.

"Thank you for telling me this", said Paulette, once he had finished. "I can tell it's been very hard for you . . .

"You don't", Abdul blurted out.

"I beg your pardon?"

"You have no idea what I've been through", said Abdul, all in one breath. "You don't know what it's like to be me, you've never had what I've had."

Paulette's eyes narrowed.

"In fact, Abdul", she said, her voice creaking, "I do know what you've gone through."

"What?", exclaimed Abdul. "How . . ."

"Because", said Paulette, "my mother came here from Jamaica 60 years ago, she was just a little girl at the time. She was here with no problems for so long, but then one day, seven years ago, she was sacked from her job because she didn't have the papers to prove she had a right to be here."

"Why didn't she?", wondered Abdul.

"Because when she arrived it wasn't necessary", replied Paulette. "But then the Home Office changed the rules, as part of what they called the hostile environment. They told her she was an immigration offender, they locked her away in a place like this, and told her she would be sent to Jamaica, a place she hadn't been to since she came here."

"So was she sent away?", asked Abdul.

"No", Paulette replied. "Luckily, I spoke to some of my colleagues about her, and they were able to help. The Home Office in the end had to admit they had been wrong, and she was given leave to remain."

"Is your mum all right?", asked Abdul.

"No", said Paulette. "She died of a heart attack just two months after winning her case. I'm sure it was the stress that killed her." There was an unmistakable bitterness in her voice.

Abdul had nothing to say. If anything, he thought, Paulette's mother seemed to have had it even worse than him.

"Believe me, Abdul", continued Paulette, perhaps sensing what Abdul was thinking. "I've fought the Home Office countless times, I know what their culture is like. They even once put my name on a list of so-called lefty immigration lawyers, which they handed to the press, and I got a barrage of death threats and racial abuse."

"But can you get me out of here?", asked Abdul.

For the first time, Paulette's expression changed: she was now wearing a reassuring smile.

"Of course I can", she said. "We can appeal to a special immigration appeals court. From what you have told me, you have a very good chance of winning your appeal. But first, to get you out, we need to get bail for you. Do you know anyone who could afford to pay for you?"

"Yes", said Abdul. He was now feeling a lot more hopeful now. "Andy would."

"Your old teacher?", asked Paulette. Abdul nodded.

"OK, then", said Paulette. "Could you please tell me Andy's address and phone number."

Abdul did so: Paulette wrote the details down in her notebook.

"Thank you, Abdul", she said. "As soon as I've left here, I'll go back to court to ask for bail. If you get it, I'll lodge an appeal against the deportation order."

"When will the appeal be?", asked Abdul.

"I can't say, sadly", said Paulette. "I have no power to determine these things, but hopefully, it'll be as soon as possible."

She stood up and offered her hand.

"Good luck, Abdul, it's been a pleasure to be introduced to you, and I will do all I can to help you stay in this country."

Abdul shook her hand warmly. The left the room together and walked down the stairs, where they said their goodbyes. Though slightly disappointed at having missed out on his exercise, Abdul ran back to his cell full of hope. All his doubts about Paulette had now vanished.


"Harbi, that woke lawyer is on the phone."

Abdul dashed all the way to the phone room and grabbed the receiver: it was two days since his meeting with Paulette.

"Hello?", he said.

"Is that Abdul?", came Paulette's voice.

"Yes", he replied breathlessly.

"I have good news to report: the judge has granted you bail."

"Yes!", shouted Abdul. Then, feeling somewhat embarrassed, "Thank you."

"That's nothing", said Paulette. "You'll be released tomorrow, on condition that you wear an electronic tag and live at the house of Mr. Andy Bourne. You will also be subject to a 10pm curfew."

"Can't I go back home?", asked Abdul.

"Unfortunately, no", said Paulette. "No one will rent a place to you at the moment, because of your immigration status. It's all part of the hostile environment, I'm afraid."

"What, even if I tell them I was trafficked . . ."

"Yes", said Paulette, sounding sorrowful. "They'll go by what the Home Office tells them: if they did rent to you, they could be fined or even go to prison. So unfortunately if you tell them you are a victim of trafficking, they won't believe you."


"They won't believe you", jeered Amina.

"Why won't they?", asked Abdul.

He was crying: his back was raw from the stripes Amina had inflicted on him after she noticed he had left a handful of stains on the children's clothes.

"Because no one would believe a silly little boy like you", she sneered. "Compared with me, a volunteer at the Somali Community Centre, or Hassan, an imam."

"I'll still tell them even if they won't believe me", insisted Abdul.

"If you do", said Amina in a menacing voice, "you'll never see your family again."


"Are you still there, Abdul?", asked Paulette.

"Yes", said Abdul quickly, doing his best to shake off the awful recollection.

"Are you OK?"

"I'm fine, just . . ."

"I don't mean that, I mean, are you fine with the bail conditions."

"I am."

What choice did he have?

10 August 2023

Home Chapter 5: On the Plane

Abdul was feeling happy as he strode into Lunar House for his substantive interview: even the photographing and fingerprinting didn't seem so bad this time. But then he heard his name called out, and he was startled: that wasn't Fred, that was a woman's voice. He made his way to the interview room, and he saw a woman with harsh lines on her face, and a forbidding expression. Abdul's stomach clenched: something told him this couldn't be good.

"Where's Fred?", he asked.

"Never you mind", said the woman repressively.

"But he did it last time, and he said . . ."

"It doesn't matter, I'm doing it this time", she said. "Sit down."

She pointed to a chair. She had the air of a teacher rebuking a naughty pupil.

Abdul very slowly lowered himself onto the chair.

"Has anything happened to Fred?", he inquired, though he knew what her answer would be.

"We're not here to talk about Fred, it's you I'm interested in. Fred's an irrelevance."

"Who are you, then?", Abdul blurted out.

"Don't you take that tone with me, when I'm the one who'll decide if you can stay in this country. My name is Joan Manion."

Abdul was silent.

"So", said Joan, in a businesslike voice, "where do you come from?"

"Somalia", said Abdul.

"How did you come to the UK?"

"I was tricked into coming . . ."

"Tricked? How?"

Abdul felt her tone was unnecessarily sharp.

"I was only a boy, and a woman who kept coming to our house told me I could have a better life here, but when we arrived, she made me into her slave."

"How long ago was this?"

"15, maybe 16 or 17 years ago . . ."

"You can't remember?", demanded Joan, a triumphant expression on her face.

"It's just, it was so long ago, that . . ."

"Surely you should be able to remember when something like that happened?"

Abdul looked down at his shoes.

"Nothing to say", said Joan. "I see you've been caught out."

"Please", begged Abdul, "I'm telling you the truth."

"So", said Joan, "if you are telling the truth, maybe you can tell me what this woman did to you."

"She made me work in the house all day, and beat me if she didn't like what I was doing."

"What did she make you do?"

"Everything, she made me cook food, wash the dishes, wash her children, make the beds . . ."

"And pick up the milk every morning?"

"Yes . . . no, sorry . . . she didn't make me do that . . ."

"Caught you out again!". Joan sounded positively thrilled.

"Please, I just . . ."

"Never mind that, let's get back to my questions. How did this woman punish you?"

"She would beat me . . ."

"On what part of the body?"

Abdul stared at her.

"Answer the question", ordered Joan.

"Mostly on my back, sometimes my backside and thighs."

"Could you show me?"

"Show you?" Abdul was horrified.

"Show me where she hit you, to prove you're telling the truth."

"Well it was so long ago, that they will have healed by now."

"Again no evidence", said Joan.

The interview continued in much the same vein, with Joan challenging everything Abdul told her: at one point, she even asked him if he could produce his father's death certificate to prove that he had been killed in a terrorist bombing.

"So", said Joan, when she finally reached the end of your questions, "you say you're from Somalia."

"Yes", said Abdul.

"Isn't that a safe country?"

Abdul's mouth fell open as wide as it could go. A safe country?

"Are your family still there?"

"Yes". Abdul just managed to get the word out.

"So why haven't you tried to go back there? You have a home there"

"My home is here", Abdul insisted, quietly but firmly.

"I will decide that", said Joan. "I think you're being very unfair on your family, not trying to rejoin them."

Abdul had nothing to say to this.

"See", said Joan for what seemed like the hundredth time, "you've accepted my point. Well, that concludes our interview. You may go."

Abdul could not wait to leave. He felt humiliated. He had done nothing wrong, and yet she had made him feel like a criminal. Why had she treated him like that? And what had happened to Fred, the one who had been so kind? He supposed he would never know.


Several agonising weeks passed before the letter Abdul had been dreading came through his letterbox. It read as follows:


"Dear Mr. Harbi,


Having carefully considered your application for asylum, the Home Office has found that you have no claim. As such, we will be taking action to remove you from the UK."


Abdul let the letter fall through his fingers onto the floor. He ran to the living room and curled up on the sofa, as though that would protect him. He was shaking with fear. He had never thought he would be treated like this by the country he had made his home. When he went to bed that night, he struggled to get to sleep, worrying over what was soon to happen to him.

He was woken suddenly by a loud crashing noise. Startled, Abdul sat up in bed.

"Immigration!" boomed a loud, ominous voice from downstairs. Abdul froze. He could hear a thundering noise on the steps, getting ever louder and closer. Then, in an instant, two burly men burst into his bedroom.

"Out of bed! Now!", shouted one of them.

Abdul did not move.

"Get out!", shouted the other. Very slowly, Abdul, still in his pyjamas, pushed himself off the bed.

"Now get dressed!", shouted the first man.

As much as he hated the thought of undressing in front of these men, Abdul did not dare disobey. As soon as he had hastily put some clothes on, he felt two rough hands grab him, one on each shoulder. They dragged down the stairs and through the front door: Abdul briefly noticed that one of the hinges had come undone. Outside, it was still mainly dark, with only the merest streaks of sunlight penetrating the gloom. These thoughts had barely passed by Abdul's head when he found himself thrust into a black van and forced to sit on a wooden bench, with the two officers on either side of him.

The van sped off. Throughout the journey, Abdul did not dare speak, nor did the officers speak to him. Suddenly, sooner than Abdul had expected, the van ground to a screeching halt. The officers grabbed Abdul again and forced him out of the van. Ahead, he saw a rather dull, modern looking building, looming ahead; nearby, he heard frightening sound of planes taking off. He was marched through a door and into a reception area, where, after giving his details, he was informed that he had arrived at the Harmondsworth Immigration Removal Centre and that his flight would depart from Heathrow in a fortnight's time.


As the plane lifted off the tarmac, the young boy felt a tremendous sense of excitement. He had never even left Mogadishu before, and now here he was, off to London, the most exciting city in the world - or so she had told him. A city of dreams, a city of opportunities - he could hardly wait to get there.

"Are you looking forward to arriving in London?", Amina asked him.

Ali nodded excitedly: it was all a big adventure.

"It sounds like a great place", he said.

"It's the best place in the world", she replied, smiling at him. "Once there, you'll never leave."

"Not even to see my mum, Nadifa and Mohammed", inquired Ali, looking up into Amina's face.

"I'm sure they'll want to come over and join you in time", she reassured him.

Ali enjoyed the flight immensely. It was so thrilling, to be high up in the air, while everybody else was down below. He and Amina chatted endlessly about what he would do in London, what school he would go to, what playgrounds he would visit, where they would go for walks.

All too soon, the captain's voice was heard over the PA, announcing that they should fasten their seatbelts as they were coming into land at Heathrow. Amina turned to Ali, and there was a greater seriousness in her voice now.

"Now, Ali, have you got your ID papers with you?"

Ali showed them to her. Then he asked her a question that had been troubling him.

"Why does it say Abdul Harbi on the papers?"

"That's the name that you'll need in London", replied Amina, not missing a beat.

"But why", Ali asked.

"It's just easier that way", said Amina.

"Is there someone called Abdul Harbi?"

"Yes, there's another little boy called that, but not to worry, he'll never know about it."

"But it doesn't seem right", said Ali cautiously.

"It's the best thing for you", said Amina, in a tone that made it clear to Ali that there was no use arguing. She held out her hand. "Just give them to me."

Ali did so.

"Good boy", said Amina: as she said those words, Ali felt a bump underneath him - the plane had landed.

They caught a taxi from the airport, and soon they arrived at a nice-looking red brick house. Ali was feeling very excited as he got out of the car. But once the taxi had driven off, Amina ripped up his papers.

"Why did you do that?", protested Ali. "You said that I would need them."

"Not any more", said Amina. She was smiling again, but it was not the warm, caring smile she had used when on the plane. "You'll be working for us", she pointed to the house. "Cleaning the house, washing the children, cooking the meals . . ."

"But that's not . . ."

"I don't care if that's not what I said, that's what you're going to do".

Amina grabbed the stunned Ali by the scruff of the neck and forced him inside.


Abdul tried to shrug off the memory, but it was not easy as that was the only time he had been on a plane.

Two staff from the centre escorted him to his cell, making jokes about smelly Africans and how Abdul was as dirty as his skin: Abdul had still not washed or shaved that morning. Once the guards had left him, he dashed to the shower, and felt the cool, refreshing relief of water flowing over his body. Back in his cell, he shaved, and then made his way to the canteen for a belated breakfast.


Abdul soon found he did not like his new home. It was not a happy place: the guards were openly disrespectful towards the inmates, calling them lazy illegal immigrants, and loudly speculating about the supposedly crime-riven places the detainees had come from. Every other day there seemed to be an inmate taken to the infirmary for a self-harming incident. At night, Abdul found it hard to sleep, as there was always someone crying out in anguish in a neighbouring cell. He was allowed to browse the Internet in the library, but when he tried to get onto the BBC website - his most trusted news source - he found that it was blocked. On another day, after overhearing another inmate mentioning an Amnesty International report about the treatment of asylum seekers in Britain, he tried to access the Amnesty website, only to find that was blocked too. He was also permitted one-hour of exercise a day: there was also a gym but he preferred not to use it. Life just seemed to moved very slow, like watching water drip down a wall.


A week passed: it was another week to go until Abdul was due to the bundled onto the deportation flight. Visiting hour had arrived, but as Abdul had no family in Britain, he just sat, bored, on the edge of his bed.

"Oi! Harbi!"

He looked up: a guard was standing in the doorway.

"There are two people here to see you. One of them's a complete weirdo."

Wondering who would be visiting him, Abdul silently allowed the guard to escort him to the visitors' room. He was made to sit at a table, and was stunned when he soon saw Sam and Heather approaching him. Sam was wearing a suit and women's trousers, while Heather was wearing a lovely blue dress with red flowers.

"How's things?", called out Sam.

"Not so good", muttered Abdul, as Sam and Heather drew level with the table and sat themselves down.

"Are you OK, Abdul?", asked Heather: she fixed her eyes on Abdul with a concerned expression. Despite himself, Abdul could not help feeling pleased that Heather was looking at him.

"I'm surviving, I suppose", he said, in a surprisingly cheery voice. Then, suddenly, something dawned on him.

"How do you know I'm here?", he asked.

"We went round to your house three days ago, to see you", explained Sam, "but found you weren't there, obviously."

"So", added Heather, "we put two and two together, realised it must be something to do with the Home Office . . ." There was a note of disgust in her voice as she said those last two words.

"So we guessed you must be in immigration detention", continued Sam, "so we rang up all the centres in London, to ask after you, it was only last night that we found you were here, we've had to hastily book time off work to see you."

They smiled at Abdul: he managed only the feeblest smile in response.

"So what happened to you?", asked Heather anxiously.

"What do you mean?", inquired Abdul.

"I mean, how did you end up here?"

Abdul sighed, and told them the whole saga of how Andy had advised him to apply to the Home Office, how Fred had been kind at his first interview, only to be replaced by the horrible Joan at his second, and how his claim had been rejected.

"How awful!", exclaimed Heather. "How stupid that teacher was, trusting the Home Office. And how typical that when someone there is kind, they get someone else for the second one." Anger was clearly building up inside her.

Sam shot Heather a shrewd look. "All right, Heather, but getting angry isn't going to help Abdul", they said. Heather looked embarrassed.

"Anyway", said Sam, "on that subject . . ." They pushed a piece of paper towards Abdul: written on it were the words "Clarkson & Partners", and a series of numbers.

Abdul eyed the paper warily.

"What is that?", he asked.

"It's the phone number of a law firm that helps victims of trafficking", said Sam. "They'll be able to get you out of here, and appeal against the deportation order. Heather spent all last night on the Internet trying to find a law firm like this, and she was almost shouting for joy when she found it." Sam smiled at Heather, who allowed a brief smile, part embarrassed, part proud, to cross her face. Abdul felt a strange sensation of happiness. "Really", Sam continued, "you could have done with them in your Home Office hearing."

"Are you sure they'll be of help?", asked Abdul.

"Well, if you don't try, you won't find out, will you?", quipped Sam: Abdul had to smile at this.

"Seriously, though", said Sam, "don't give up, you've got a good chance of winning your appeal."

"Or you will if the system isn't completely screwed", said Heather.

Desperate to think about something else for a change, Abdul asked Sam and Heather about their home life, and the rest of the conversation passed by cheerfully. When it was time for the visit to end, Sam shook Abdul's hand.

"Good luck, Abdul", they said, "I know it'll come fine in the end."

Heather hugged Abdul, somewhat to his shock. "Keep fighting the bastards", she whispered fiercely.

"I will", Abdul breathed back.

Heather smiled, and she and Sam then waved goodbye and turned away. Abdul watched them go - straining to keep a view of Heather for as long as possible - and then, tightly clutching the piece of paper in his hands, he ran to to the phone room, and hastily dialled the number Sam had given him. After a 20-minute wait, the call finally got through.

"Hello", said a woman's voice on the other end. "Can I help you?"

"Yes", said Abdul breathlessly, and he quickly spilled out his situation: several times she had to ask him to pause.

"OK, Abdul, thanks for telling me this", said the lawyer, when he had finished. "My name is Paulette Coleman. From what you have told me, you seem to have a very good case to be granted asylum."

"But what can you do?", asked Abdul

"I can apply to the courts for an injuction", said Paulette.

"And what will that do?"

"It will put the deportation order on hold, so you won't be on the plane next week, and we'll be able to appeal and get you granted asylum."

Abdul could scarcely believe what he was hearing.

"Is that really true?", he asked.

"I assure it is", said Paulette.

"Thank you so much", said Abdul, and without awaiting her reply he put the phone down and sped back to his cell. At last, some real hope.


Abdul was lying on his bed feeling depressed. Today was the day: in just two hours' time, he would taken from the centre to the airport nearby, and would be on a plane for only the second time in his life. What had happened to Paulette and her promise of help.

"Harbi!"

It was the same officer who had told him of Sam and Heather's visit. Abdul sat bolt upright: what, was he going to be taken away already?

"There's a phone call for you. Some lawyer apparently . . ."

Abdul darted all the way to the phone room: he felt both excited and fearful.

"Hello?", he said into the receiver.

"Is that Abdul?", asked Paulette.

"Yes."

"How are you feeling?"

"I'm worried, I'm supposed to be taken away in two hours."

"Well", said Paulette, "I have some good news for you."

"What?", asked Abdul. He thought he knew what it was but did not dare imagine it.

"I've got the injuction. You won't be on the plane, and I'll be coming round to see you tomorrow to plan your appeal."

"Really?", asked a disbelieving Abdul.

"Really", said Paulette: Abdul thought her tone rather flat for someone who had just saved her client from an unjust deportation.

"Well, thanks", said Abdul. "I just wish I'd known about you earlier."

"Well never mind", said Paulette. "What matters is the here and now. I'm looking forward to speaking to you tomorrow. Goodbye, Abdul, and enjoy the rest of your day.

"Goodbye", said Abdul, and he replaced the receiver.

Abdul left the phone room and made his way to the communal area, feeling happier than he had done since he had lost his job. In the communal area, the radio was playing: he heard snippets of a speech by the Home Secretary, talking about "lefty lawyers", "stopping deportations at the last minute", "working with the Labour Party" and "frustrating the will of the British people".

13 July 2023

Home Chapter 4: Hope

Abdul was awake early on the morning of his interview with the Home Office. He tried to hard to get back to sleep, but his nerves kept him awake. Eventually, he gave up the effort, and made his way to the kitchen for an early morning coffee, deep in thought about what was to come. He was so absorbed that suddenly he realised he had just half an hour to catch the bus. Hastily, he eat his breakfast, got washed and shaved, and put on the smartest clothes he owned: a grey shirt he had once bought for a work function, and some nice if slightly loose-fitting black trousers. He then dashed out of the house and just caught the bus to Lunar House. It was a very tall building, he thought, looming rather ominously above him.

On entering the building and checking in at reception, Abdul was forced to have his photograph and fingerprints taken. He was now feeling more nervous than ever, and when his name was called he half staggered over to the interview room: however, when he looked up, he saw a smiling man, short with dark hair and hazel eyes and began to feel slightly more hopeful.

"Hello, Abdul, welcome to the Home Office, my name is Fred Hands", he said.

"Hello", said Abdul cautiously.

"Do sit down", urged Fred: Abdul obliged.

"Well, now", said Fred, "this is what we call the screening interview, next week you'll have your substantive interview."

"What's the difference?", asked Abdul, feeling somewhat alarmed.

"It's just that, in the screening interview, we just ask you a few basic questions, it's an overview, basically, of how you came to the UK and why you're claiming asylum, whereas in the substantive interview, we go into much greater detail. Is that OK?"

Abdul nodded. What choice did he have?

"So", Fred continued, still smiling and in the same friendly tone, "please tell me about yourself, Abdul."

"Well", said Abdul hesitantly, "I was born in Mogadishu, and I was happy there at first, but then my dad was killed by al-Shabaab . . ."

"I'm so sorry to hear that", said Fred, abruptly breaking off from the notes he had begun to take. Abdul began to feel slightly warmer towards him.

"But still", Abdul continued, now speaking with greater confidence, "I had a lovely time at home with my mum, my brother and my sister until . . ."

"Until what?", inquired Fred.

Abdul swallowed hard. "There was this woman, called Amina Mattar, she kept coming to our house, and one day, she told me that she would take me to London for a new home and a better life, she gave me details of what she said were family members in London, so she did, she flew me over, but when we came to her house, she ripped up the contact details and made me be her slave."

Despite the traumatic memories he was being required to relive, Abdul spoke quickly and confidently: he knew that he could open up to Fred and be believed.

"What did she do?", he asked Fred. He looked very troubled by Abdul's story.

"I had to work for her and her family night and day", said Abdul, "all the washing, cooking and cleaning, all that stuff. Sometimes I had to work late at night or early in the morning. And if she didn't like what I did, she beat me."

"So how did you get away from her?", asked Fred. He was now leaning forward, his expression full of sympathy and concern.

"I told my form teacher at school, and he fostered me."

"And why are you applying for asylum?"

"I got British citizenship, but it was taken away from me recently when they found out that my name is not my real name, it's the name Amina gave me, so I spoke to my old teacher and he told me to apply for asylum", said Abdul, once again speaking quickly.

There was an awkward silence as Fred finished taking his notes.

"Well", he finally said, "I'm really very sorry to hear that Abdul, it seems like you've been treated really badly, not just the trafficking but having your citizenship taken away when it wasn't even your fault . . . that was so unfair."

"So what happens now?", asked Abdul.

"Well, as I said before", replied Fred, "I'll do your substantive interview in a week's time, and then a decision will be made. I'm sure, though, from what you've said, you will be granted asylum, you certainly deserve it."

Abdul felt a warm wave of relief wash all over him.

"Thank you so much", he said: he spoke so quickly that Fred had to ask him to repeat the words. Fred then smiled.

"Not at all", he said. He stood up and offered his hand: Abdul shook it with gratitude. "It's been a pleasure meeting you, Abdul, and I look forward to seeing you again in a week's time."


Once Abdul had left the office, Fred gathered up his notes, taking care to fold them in half, so nobody could see them. He strode purposefully towards the lift, stepping out on the first floor to make the short journey to the office. Inside were a number of long tables, with a computer and a caseworker at each one. Silently, unobtrusively, Fred made his way to a seat at the very bottom of the office, next to a large window that gave an excellent view of the scenery outside, not that he looked out of it very often. He had been shocked and stunned when he had heard Abdul's story: though he had interviewed victims of torture or conflict before, this was the first time he had encountered a victim of modern slavery. It's just not right, what happened to Abdul, he thought, it's just not right. Fred's compassionate and sympathetic approach to his interviewees was not approved of by his superiors: on one occasion, one of his senior colleagues had told him he was "too nice", while another had patronisingly told him, "Aw, you're so good to our customers, aren't you?", but Fred had never deviated from his view that the Home Office was a customer service organisation that should be helping its clients, not obstructing them.

"Hiya Fred!", rang out an exaggeratedly high pitched voice.

Fred looked up, though he knew who this was. A woman, well built and slightly taller than he was, with a narrow, lined face, was sitting at the computer opposite to his: this was Joan Manion, his line manager. For some reason, she had appeared to take a great liking to Fred so soon after he had started working at the Home Office. One morning, she had come up to him out of the blue to talk to him in a friendly manner: at the time, Fred had still been struggling to find his feet in his new job and had felt grateful that someone senior seemed to like him. Shortly afterwards, the seating patterns had been rearranged and Joan had made sure that Fred would sit opposite her, and would chat to him from behind her computer nearly every day. However, his opinion of her had started to change one day, when she had excitedly told him a story of a man who had tried to bring his wife and two daughters over from the Philippines to live with him in the UK: how this man had tried to convince her that he met the minimum income threshold by claiming to have a second job that did not exist, and then that he had received a promotion, neither of which had turned out to be true. "They have no right to come here whatsoever", Joan had told Fred joyfully, and she had also suggested that the man's wife had "led him on". Though he had been careful not to say anything, Fred had privately been shocked at her total lack of sympathy for the family, and everything he had heard from her since then had only reinforced his view that she was cruel, bigoted and uncaring. In addition, every day she would loudly regale him with tales of her husband and daughter, apparently failing to notice that Fred was not interested.

"Hello", said Fred warily.

"How did you get on?", asked Joan, still in that horrible squeaky voice.

"I had a slavery victim", said Fred: he had been so struck by Abdul's story that he felt the need to get it out, seemingly forgetting who he was talking to. "Poor young man from Somalia, trafficked, forced to be a domestic servant . . ."

"How do you know that?", said Joan sharply.

"Well . . . because he told me, that's why", said Fred.

"But you can't just accept what he says", insisted Joan.

"But he was telling the truth", said Fred, doing his best to control his developing anger.

"How do you know that?", demanded Joan.

"Because . . .", began Fred, struggling to find the right words.

Joan pounced. "See, you can't prove it", she said, with an unmistakable air of triumph. "You need to be rigorous with these people, you need to question everything they tell you. We should only give asylum to those who meet the criteria. You can't just let these people walk all over you."

"So you're saying he's lying?", asked Fred, his voice shaking.

"You should always assume that he is", said Joan smoothly.

"How can you be so cruel?", exclaimed Fred, trying hard not to shout.

"I'm not being cruel, it's our job to stop people coming here, abusing our hospitality. The British people expect us to remove people with no right to be in the UK."

"But you don't know that he has no right." Fred's voice was getting louder.

"You should assume that he doesn't until he can prove otherwise. You should be suspicious of everything he tells you. Assume that he is lying. Most of them are."

Fred could not control himself any longer.

"Have you no empathy?", he shouted. "Do you not care about other people?"

"How can you be so rude?", said Joan, looking genuinely shocked. "Show me so little respect? And all because I told you the correct procedure?"

"It's the way you said it", Fred tried to explain.

"There's nothing wrong with what I said", said Joan. "Now get back to work and type up your notes", she added, as Fred opened his mouth to argue.


The rest of the working day passed uneventfully. Joan chatted on to Fred as though nothing had happened, but he was in no mood to chat back. He also had to endure her boasting to another member of staff - in the most graphic terms - about her fantasy of having sex with a Premier League football manager: "When he knocks, the house rocks!" She declared that she would happily send her husband out of the house should her hero ever come calling, and when it was pointed out to her that the man had a wife, she replied "But she's a home wrecker": the object of her fantasies had apparently been involved with another woman before meeting his future spouse. Fred did his best to close his ears.

Finally, Fred's shift came to an end. "Good night, Fred", Joan called to him as he locked away his files. He didn't answer. He made his way towards the office door: just before he got there, he met one of his colleagues who worked on the late shift, and had a brief but pleasant conversation with her. He travelled down in the lift, made his way out of the entrance into the warm Sun, and headed towards the bus stop.

Barely had he set foot outside the building when he received a voicemail message on his phone. It was from Opportunities, the agency employing him, asking him to get in touch as they had a very important message for him. He wondered why they wanted to speak to him: maybe it was about the fixed-term contract he had been offered. He called the number and a consultant answered.

"Is that Fred?", she asked.

"Yes."

"So you've finished work, and you're going home now?" Her voice was bright and friendly, almost comforting.

"Yes."

"I've got some important news for you, Fred, and it's not good news, I'm afraid."

"What?", Fred started. What on Earth had happened?

"The Home Office has decided to end your assignment."

"What?", exclaimed Fred again. "Why?" These were the only words he could get out.

"It's because you mentioned your work for the Home Office on your LinkedIn page."

"My LinkedIn page?"

"Yes, it's a breach of the Official Secrets Act."

"But maybe if I change my LinkedIn page, so I no longer say I'm with the Home Office, will they give me my job back?" Fred said this more out of desperation than hope.

"I'm afraid they will never give you your job back."

"But why couldn't they at least tell me?", asked Fred. He was now close to tears. When he was a boy, his parents had set up a savings account for him to buy a house in the future, but he had been unable to find a place of his own, and his savings meant he could not claim benefits: losing his job meant he would have no income.

"It's because they think you would have been violent if they had told you to your face."

Fred was now crying freely. "Please, please, please tell me it's all a joke."

"I'm so sorry", was all the consultant could say.

Fred switched off the call. He caught the bus home, still feeling devastated. How could Joan, who had always seemed to like him, have done this to him? He changed his LinkedIn page to remove all reference to the Home Office, and emailed Joan to explain this, and ask if she would reinstate him. The following day he desperately checked his emails to see if she had replied: she had not.


Abdul was feeling very happy as he arrived back at his home. It was all right, Fred believed him, Fred would make sure his application came through. He sat on a chair in the living room. Maybe, he thought, once he was granted asylum, he could bring his family over. How lovely that would be . . .


"Don't run too far, Ali", Mohammed called out to him.

The two older children were sitting on the front porch of the house, while Ali was running up and down the street.

"Why do you always say that?", asked Ali. "You are so boring."

"Because mum says so", Mohammed replied.

" 'Because mum says so' ", mimicked Ali.

"Because it can be dangerous", added Nadifa.

"What, is there a lion round the corner?", asked Ali sceptically.

"Because", said Nadifa patiently, "there are bad people around, people who might kill or do horrible things to you. Please stay where we can see you."

Ali pulled a face, then reluctantly sauntered back towards his siblings.

"You can run up and down, you know, just stay in sight", Nadifa explained, with a slight sigh.

Ali half-smiled and began to run up and down again. His fun was short-lived, however, as he soon heard the voice of their mother:

"Dinner's ready!"

He ambled back towards the house: Mohammed and Nadifa stood up, but did not turn to enter the house until Ali had reached them.

Khadija smiled on all three of them as they entered the kitchen. "Enjoy your afternoon?"

"Ali was being trouble again", said Mohammed.

"I wasn't . . ." Ali began angrily, until he saw the sly grin on his brother's face: then he broke out laughing instead.

"That smells very nice", said Nadifa, as she sat down at the table and glanced at the spaghetti.

"Thanks", said Khadija. "But", she sighed, "it's hard to afford the ingredients these days, ever since your dad . . ."

She stopped abruptly: there were tears rolling down her cheeks. Nadifa stood up and patted her on the back.

"Thanks, Nadifa", said Khadija. "It's just . . . I'm starting to wonder how we'll cope . . ."

Her voice tailed off.

"It's too hot", Ali complained loudly.


Abdul shook himself awake. Those days, back in his old home, the days when he was still called Ali, when he had a mother, brother and sister. Then a thought came to him. He needed to track them down, to find out where they were, see if they were all right. That's what he would do.

02 June 2023

Home Chapter 3: Help at Hand

The next morning, Abdul woke up early, and lay in bed, still feeling dazed, for what felt like several hours. He struggled to adjust to the fact that he now had no job, he would never see Sam or any of his colleagues again. He shook his head, hoping that he would soon awake from his bad dream . . . but no, this wasn't a dream, this was real. Eventually, he forced himself to sit up on the bed, his face buried in his hands. What was he to do?

Abdul dragged himself from his bed and slowly made his way to the kitchen in his pyjamas. He had no idea what time it was. He made himself some toast and sat on the living room sofa, barely noticing the crumbs spreading over the furniture. He then got up, went to the bathroom, and got himself washed and dressed. He then left his house and set off for a walk on the banks of the Thames. It was a warm, sunny day, but Abdul did not feel warm or sunny. He dragged his feet, and spent nearly all his time staring at the ground. He was so absorbed in his thoughts that he was shocked when he realised that dark was drawing in. He made his way to a McDonalds, where he ate a quick beef burger and chips, and returned to his flat.

Another three days passed. Abdul spent nearly all his days cooped up in his home or walking by the river. As he wandered rather aimlessly around the house, he heard a letter being pushed through the doorway. Filled with idle curiosity, Abdul picked the letter up: it was a deep brown envelope, so it must be from someone important. He took the letter to the living room, sat down on the sofa and opened it: his heart skipped a beat when he saw it was from the Home Office. The letter read:


"Dear Mr. Harbi,

We have been informed that you entered the UK illegally and obtained British citizenship by deception. The Home Office is committed to removing British citizenship from those not entitled to it, and to remove from the UK those with no entitlement to remain, and, as such, we have taken the decision to take away your British citizenship and expect you to report for deportation to your country of origin immediately.

We intend to make the deportation process as swift and as humane as possible. If you want some advice about this, the number to call is below."


Abdul began to panic. He was in serious danger of being sent away from his home, from this country. He dropped the letter on to the floor and began breathing heavily. He was not going to be deported, he thought, he was not going to be, not when he had lived here for so long. And what exactly did the Home Office expect? Where would he live in Somalia? Who would he know there? How would he be able to find a job in a country he barely knew? He hadn't been there for 15 years, finding his family would not be easy, and would they even recognise him after so long? But he needed to speak to someone, someone who would give him advice. And then, in a flash, an idea came to him . . .


"Abdul Harbi?"

"Here, Mr. Bourne."

The man at the head of the classroom, short and stout with dark hair and a thin moustache, finished taking the register. He smiled at the class.

"Welcome back, I hope you all had a great weekend."

Most of the class murmured their assent. Abdul usually did this too, but this time was different. He did know why, but there just seemed to be something inside him urging him to stop living a lie.

"Didn't", he said loudly.

Mr. Bourne and all the other students stared at him. Abdul felt as if he had been caught naked.

"Why, what went wrong?", asked Mr. Bourne.

Abdul didn't answer. Mr. Bourne very slowly approached the table where Abdul was sitting, and bent down so that his face was level with Abdul's.

"Do you want to talk about it?", he asked kindly.

Abdul looked around the classroom.

"Not . . ." he said pleadingly, pointing to the rest of the class.

Mr. Bourne stood up and raised his voice, "Right then, everybody else, off to your first lesson."

There were a few murmurs of dissent, but nothing very much, and in a couple of minutes Mr. Bourne and Abdul were the only two people left in the classroom.

Mr. Bourne carefully closed the door and walked back to Abdul's table, sitting himself next to his pupil.

"So, Abdul", he said encouragingly, "what was it you wanted to say?"

Abdul blurted out everything that had happened to him: how Amina had visited his house in Mogadishu promising to give him a better life in London, how she had given him a false identity, how she had forced him to work in her house, and how she beat him when his work was not to her satisfaction. Mr. Bourne frequently had to stop him: it was difficult for him to understand Abdul's halting English.

Abdul looked desperately at his form teacher. He felt as though he had just leaped into a dark pit, not knowing what would happen to him.

Mr. Bourne looked very troubled.

"I'm sorry to hear this, Abdul", he said. "She seems like a horrible woman."

"She is", said Abdul straight away. "I no want live there more."

A strange expression was etched across the teacher's face, as though a great realisation was dawning on him.

"So now it all makes sense", he remarked, half to himself and half to Abdul. "I've always had a feeling something wasn't right: your clothes (Abdul looked down at the tattered and dirty clothes Amina had given him), the fact that you've always seemed to be afraid of this woman, the unexplained injuries, avoidance of eye contact . . ." He tailed off. "It's shocking to hear it, but I can't say I'm surprised."

"You do thing?", Abdul asked, not daring to hope.

"Do you mean, will I do something to help you?", asked Mr. Bourne.

Abdul nodded.

"Certainly I will", said Mr. Bourne. "You can't go back to that lady's home."

"Where go, then?", asked Abdul.

"I will take you home with me", Mr. Bourne replied. "I'll phone Social Services and we'll see what they can do for you."

Abdul could scarcely believe it.

"Thanks, Mr. Bourne."

"Andy", insisted the teacher.


After that things had happened very quickly: Andy had contacted Social Services, as he had said, and fostered Abdul. For the first time since leaving Mogadishu, Abdul had a place he could truly call home. He had never forgotten Andy's generosity, and the two had remained in touch ever since.

That evening Abdul travelled to Andy's house and rang the doorbell.

"Abdul! What a pleasant surprise!", smiled Andy when he answered the door. "Do come in."

Abdul stepped over the threshold. Andy led him into the living room: a large, spacious place with comfy chairs, a large television in the corner, and bay windows. Abdul recalled many happy times here.

"Oh, it's you", said a voice. Abdul looked round. A short, brown haired woman was sitting in one of the chairs, her eyes narrowed.

"What trouble are you causing this time?", she asked.

Abdul sighed. Andy had divorced three years earlier, and then remarried: Susan was far less friendly to Abdul than his first wife had been. Abdul did his best to explain his situation to her.

"So you've finally been caught", she said remorselessly. "You thought you could get away with it, did you? But in the end . . ."

Andy hurriedly cut her off.

"So, Abdul, you're worried about being deported?"

"Yes", Abdul replied.

"Not before time", added Susan. Abdul did his best to pretend she wasn't there.

"You've nothing to worry about", Andy assured him. "They can't deport a trafficking victim. You should apply for asylum, tell them that you were trafficked, and they'll let you stay."

"Like heck they will", grunted Susan.

"But", said Abdul, "that letter they sent me, it wasn't very nice . . ."

"It may have seemed that way", said Andy, "but that's because they don't know the whole story. If you tell them you were trafficked, they'll accept it, just like Social Services did."

"Such a cock and bull story", muttered Susan.

Abdul felt happy and grateful. Once again, Andy had shown him the way out of a situation. Andy was surely right, Abdul thought, there was no way the Home Office could turn him down.

11 May 2023

Home Chapter 2: The Party's Over

As Abdul walked up the steps of the Great Big Ballroom, he thought he looked quite nice: he was dressed in a light blue shirt and wore some smart black trousers. But he felt nervous: what would John say when he saw that Abdul had brought no family with him?

The ballroom was a wide open space, with a spotless, gleaming wooden floor. There was a line of chairs along the wall to Abdul's left, and another to the right. The walls were hung with portraits: Abdul assumed they must be of famous men from British history, politicians, that sort of thing. Briefly he wondered what great deeds they had done to deserve being painted. Then he glanced at the ceiling, and saw a magnificent chandelier hanging down. Abdul wondered how much it must have cost, and wondered if he might be able to afford it if he continued to work hard.

"Liking the ceiling?"

That voice, and that laugh, brought Abdul out of his reverie. Sam was standing in front of him. How curious, thought Abdul, that even when Sam went to a party, they still wore weird clothes: they were wearing a burgundy tie and a pink dress. Holding Sam's hand was a woman whom Abdul had only seen two or three times before: she was wearing a sparking blue dress with flowers, and was about the same height as Sam, with soft brown hair, a round face and a welcoming smile.

"Hello there Abdul, you look ever so nice", she said.

"Thanks, Heather", said Abdul, a bit awkwardly.

"Shall we all dance together?", asked Sam.

Abdul nodded, though it felt strange to be dancing with someone like Sam. But he enjoyed it, and the three of them were soon twirling round, laughing. Abdul began to think what a wonderful evening this was.

When they could dance no more, Abdul, Sam and Heather sat down on the chairs next to the wall.

"Aren't you lonely, Abdul?", asked Sam, giggling.

"What do you mean?", asked Abdul.

"Bringing no one to the party", said Sam.

"You shouldn't really be asking that sort of question Sam", said Heather, gently but reproachfully.

"Oh, there you are, Abdul!", boomed the voice of John.

Abdul looked up. John, who look even more enthusiastic than normal, no doubt due to a few drinks (another of these strange Western habits, thought Abdul), was waltzing his way over to them.

"Hello", said Abdul, his nervousness suddenly returning.

"Where are your family?", John inquired: his tone was still largely friendly but there was also a hint of disappointment. "Couldn't they come?"

Abdul looked at the floor. How could he explain it to John?

"It's a bit strange, seeing as they braved the dangerous journey from Somalia", remarked John.

"They didn't". Abdul could not stop himself: John leant in closer to him, with Sam and Heather looked at him with shocked expressions.

"I mean, they did . . ." said Abdul hastily, but John cut him off.

"Don't try to pretend Abdul, I know what you said", said John: there was a definite coolness in his voice. Abdul was worried: how would John react?

"What's it got to do with you, anyway?", asked Heather coldly. She was glaring at John.

"Maybe you could leave it, John . . .", began Sam awkwardly, but Abdul suddenly blurted out:

"My parents aren't refugees." He spoke very quickly as the other three stared at him. "My Dad was killed in an al-Shabaab bombing, and there was this woman who came to the house a lot, she took me to London and made me become a slave in her house. And it's not my real name, my name is really Ali Egal, the lady gave me another boy's name."

Abdul gradually lifted his head to look at John. What he saw shocked him: John's smile had vanished, and he now looked, stern, disapproving, even angry.

"You lied to me", he said: there was no trace of the warmth with which he had always previously addressed Abdul.

"Be reasonable, John, it's not his fault he has a false identity", urged Sam.

"You're a disgrace, talking to a victim of trafficking like that", said Heather.

"Please, Heather", said Sam, as John's face rapidly turned red.

"You used a fake name on your passport", said John, turning back to Abdul. "I don't believe that story you just told me."

Abdul hung his head. When he had started looking for jobs, he had been required to prove he had the right to work in the United Kingdom, so he had applied for British citizenship under the name Amina had given him. It had seemed to make sense at the time: he had been using that name since the age of 10, he had not seen his family or anyone who knew his original name since then, everyone around him knew him as Abdul. Ali was the boy from Somalia, Abdul was the young man trying to make a living in the UK. He had shown his British passport to John after his job application had been accepted.

"I'm sorry, I just . . ."

"You obtained your passport under false pretenses", said John. "You're an illegal immigrant, you don't belong in this country."

"You weren't saying that just now", pointed out Heather, her eyes narrowed.

"I have no problem with refugees coming here via the proper routes", replied John. "But I don't like people telling lies to get a passport."

"This country is my home", Abdul pleaded. "I've lived here 15 years." His eyes were beginning to moisten.

"This is not your home, you have no right to work in the UK", said John, "so I have no choice but to dismiss you."

"No, no, no, please", cried Abdul, his tears now flowing freely. "I've worked for you for three years, you've always said I do a good job."

"That's right", said Sam. "Think again, John, you know how good a worker Abdul is, he's never given any trouble, the company gets good reviews because of his cooking."

"I have no choice", insisted John. "I can't employ an illegal immigrant, the Home Office would be on to me, I might even go to prison."

"Please", begged Abdul, whose face was now covered in tears, "keep me on, I love the job."

"And you're making him very unhappy", said Heather.

"That's no concern of mine", said John. "My only concern is that I don't drag the company's reputation through the mud, think of all the stories there would be in the papers, think of the custom we would lose, if word got out I had an illegal immigrant on the staff. I'm sorry, Abdul, but I have to let you go, and I also have to report you to the Home Office."

John strode away. Heather tried to dart after him, but Sam held her back

"Don't be a fool, he's way bigger than you, he'd beat the living daylights out of you", Sam whispered to her.

Abdul slumped onto the nearest chair, sobbing. Heather hugged him hard.

"You're well out of it", she told him. "I wouldn't want to work for that horrible man."

"Why didn't you tell us before, Abdul?", asked Sam.

"It's just . . . I didn't want anyone to know . . . it was too . . .", Abdul sobbed.

"Leave it, Sam", warned Heather.

"I'm very sorry it had to end like this", said Sam, "but I'm sure it'll all be sorted out for you soon."

"But . . . Home Office . . .", said Abdul, breathing very heavily.

"I'm sure if you'll explain to them, they'll understand", said Sam.

"I wouldn't be so sure", said Heather.

"Such a ray of sunshine aren't you?", remarked Sam, half amused, half exasperated.

Abdul got up.

"I'd like to go home now", he said through his sobs.

"OK", smiled Sam. They hugged Abdul. "See you soon, hopefully in happier circumstances."

Despite himself, Abdul could not help a small smile: it was good to have someone be so cheerful.

"Good luck, Abdul", said Heather, as she squeezed him tightly: Abdul felt a mixture of awkwardness and excitement.

Abdul said goodbye to Sam and Heather, and hurried out of the Great Big Ballroom, still crying. It had suddenly started raining heavily inside, and as he wasn't wearing a raincoat, he ran very fast to dodge the showers as much as possible. Eventually, he reached his flat, where he took off his wet clothes, put his pyjamas on and slumped onto the bed. Normally the bed was very comforting to him, but not now. He also usually took great pride in the Employee of the Month certificates dotted around the wall, but not now. He had always been happy in the job, it had given a sense of worth, a sense of identity, and now this . . .


Abdul continued to cry.

"Don't you ever stop?", sneered Amina, as she lifted Hassan's belt as high as she could manage, for another strike.

Abdul was lying face down on the settee, his back exposed. He was already in great pain for the three blows she had already delivered. She brought the belt crashing down on him once again. The sting was excruciating, like having sharp needles stuck into his back. He cried out.

"Feeling sorry for yourself, you ungrateful, selfish little wretch?", growled Hassan: he was sitting in an armchair opposite the settee. "Don't you ever think of the poor children who you didn't wash properly, who you left with bits of dirt on?"

Abdul had overslept that morning: the previous night, Amina had had him up late, ironing Hassan's best shirt and trousers for a business meeting the next day. He had been woken by Amina banging on his bedroom door telling him to get up and make breakfast, and telling him he was a lazy so-and-so. No sooner had breakfast been finished - and without being allowed to eat anything himself - than he was told to wash the children as quickly as possible before they went to school. He had been in such a hurry that he had left some body parts unwashed: Yusuf and Fatima had complained loudly to their mother about this.

Amina hit Abdul several more times, before Hassan told her that was enough for now, and Abdul ran all the way to his room, threw himself on the bed, and cried some more.